Sunday, September 26, 2004

Kiss From A Rose

Seal is back in action! He is releasing a new acoustic album in November and watching him live at the Hollywood Bowl was really cool. It would have been better to go to the Hollywood Bowl as a couple because everybody were couples. But it's is exhilirating to learn how to be single again! Emy went with me and she prepared a nice picnic basket with wine, cheese, olives and fruits. Zap Mama played as well and she was sizzling in her african/reggae beats. Of course we were stupid enough to wear stilletos and walking the uphill/downhill road from where we parked up the Bowl. We thought we'd dress up and go out aftrwards without realizing that --- hello --- WALKING to see concert!!! Girls ca be so stupid just to be cute sometimes, but then again, I am no longer a girl... I am now a WOMAN!
I shouldn't forget to mention that on the way to the Bowl, we stopped by some liquor store to get some soda and who did we see? Matt Dillon Yup! He gave me his signature one sided smile. He passed by me twice, making eye contact and smiling that smile! If I didn't know any better, I'd think he was hitting on me. But I don't make a practice of flatering myself that way. I just smiled and back and played it cool.
I would make it a point to write more, specially now that Chi's playhouse have it's own broadband connection. No more excuse to not write. But also, I was busy finding myself... I am still lost however... But to not try and find what you lost is absurd... I can't be that lucid.
After the concert where Seal made me cry... we went to Sunset and were heading to the Standard, my regular digs but they had plubming problems and had to make people leave before clock hits midnight. Emy and I ended up at the Saddle Ranch. Not the place I would normally go to but it wasn't bad. What people would do to get attention? They had this mechanical bull and guys and gals love to ride it. I personally wouldn't out of shear respect for myself. No amount of curiousity would let me embarrass myself like so. Besides, I might break my neck. I found out though, that a woman don't need to do much to get a guys attention. The whole single game is pretty FUN!
Sunday.... woke up with enough time to go to church. We tried a one in Brentwood. Nice church with a predominantly white church goers, we saw that actor that played that loony lawyer guy at that hit TV show Ally McBeal. We didn't go to church to see stars but that's what make LA quite interesting!
Headed to the Kodak Theatre to see Val Kilmer play Moses in the updated musical, The Ten Commandments with Chi. He was hot and he sang very well. I like the updated version of the spiritual message and I was curious how they would show the Red Sea split in two and my curiousity was satisfied on how well they did it. I would highly recommend seeing this musical. It's an event of a lifetime!
I have to back track my other weekends that proved to be very enjoyable. I will try to keep my writing light since the heavy stuff going on in my head would just drive everyone mad. I need to keep some feelings private as I don't even know if it is being caused by the now on-going hormone therapy....

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

The Standard weekend...

In L.A. you can buy your way to VIP-ness!

This weekend was Chi's birthday bang at The Standard Hotel in Downtown. We got a room and was there by 3p.m. in time for checkin' in. It was so rad! The room as boutique-ish of course which we like but it's not tiny like the usual N.Y. boutique hotels. We really love it. We went straight to the pool side at the rooftop and started early with the mojitos and some snacks that should last us to the night. It didn't feel like L.A. at all atop the building being surrounded by taller structures. I can just imagine the suits pretending to work on a Saturday only to watch scantilly clad bodies sun tanning in one of the chic hotels/hang-out place in L.A.
After a few drinks and some munchies to last us for the night. Chi and I headed back our funky room and took a nice long nap awaken by the phone ringing when our friends started arriving. Gotta get ready! Looking out the window facing 6th Street, the movie Gladiator was being projected on the building in front of us. How totally fascinating!
Am I talking like a valley girl? Whatever?
Getting a room room buys you an instant VIP pass in their very exclusive rooftop lounge where we were hanging out in the afternoon. Sounds crazy? Well it is. You hype up a club like that, everyone wants to be there, "to see and be seen!" Total L.A. party scene! The only problem is, you end up with people who are eager enough to get themselves in then it becomes less interesting than it's suppose to be. What a concept? But it was still cool, we were able to have our friends skip the long-ass line and get them in like VIP's as well. Awesome idea!
The night started slow but it turned out to be a total blast. They played good music and had people dancing. There was a few cutie-pies but not interesting enough to make me make a bold move. There was one guy I danced with but he was a dork. After a few drinks, it was a trip going all crazy under the moonlit sky surrounded by skyscrapers.
The night was almost ending and I decided to just go to our room and sleep and pretend that I am really on a mini vacation. It was one of those nights when you don't even dream... you just go to a deep slumber and get realy rested. Hhhhhmmmm.
Got up early, happy to have both my sisters with me. We went for an early breakfast at the Restaurant in the hotel. Relax..... Went to the pool and met my friend Emy, took a dip in the shallow pool and sunbath.... It was sooooooooooooo nice.... A mini vacation.....
Gotta do this more often.... This should be my Standard weekend....

Friday, September 10, 2004

time flies

It's been two weeks since I started working and I have experienced my first paycheck... Chi's on vacation... therefore, I am home alone... I go through alot of psychotic episodes...
Since going back to work, I have hang out with Emy a few times. She is another one who is going through a divorce as well, funny how the cycle of life goes. I remember when we met and we were both married. She took me to a reggae concert at the House of Blues along Sunset. That was alot of fun! I danced the night away eventhough my abs were killing me! I didn't care, I slept like a baby afterwards... which was a blessing because sleep is hard to come by these days. We've also gone shopping and gone to dinner at a blues club inside the Universal City Walk. She's been really cool, which I didn't really expect in the beginning but there is a friendship that is blossoming. She is an artist as well, which is refreshing because we've painted together on a weekend once.
I have also started on my long awaited and planned for NEW series in oil. It's quite a challenge because I have never done anything realistic, painting-wise. It'll all be nudes, mostly me but I will have some models as well. I started on a small scale but I want to really go big on this. Hopefully, mainstream enough to get some gallery gigs. I will pursue that more nest year when the whole divorce thing is over.
In terms of the ex-husband.... uuuuhhhmmm.... It's a rollercoaster! I miss him to death or maybe I miss the idea of being married more than the person itself. But, he is a losing battle... I won't even expound on why! But the more I think about it, the more I realize that saving myself is the best thing I could do and I made the right decision. Coping with that decision takes alot out of me, though... I might finally succumb to psychiatry. Oh well, that's a whole other opera.
Work's been good. Nothing great but easy stuff compared to what I use to do. It's funny how most designers are on glue when it comes to creating something that could never get built. The technological revolution encouraged a fantasy world that just won't fly in the real world. But hey, I come here to work not to make a difference, I do that on my own time... I have learned to turn off my idealistic thinking when it comes to trying to get the biggest paycheck I could.
Anyway, it's a Friday and I should head home....

Friday, September 03, 2004

career girl once more

Yoo Hoo!

I am psyched! Back to work and got my first paycheck. Who else can color and sketch the whole day and get paid as much!